The Evil Teacher

Sorry that I haven’t written for a while I have been pretty busy. People have just been trying to get into my bubble lately and have been asking for advice from me. Surely I do give them some, but for me I think it would be pretty useless to the people who ask it knowing that it’s only my opinion on the whole topic. So I pretty much have a notebook filled with conversations with someone I know also it’s pretty funny.

Well today wasn’t really the day I had in mind, because during my last class I just couldn’t think at all. To be honest I can NEVER think in that class because everyone in it is just so loud and disrespectful to the teacher. So while they don’t shut the hell up I have to be the one who suffers and don’t get to learn what I need to learn. To top things off my teacher started yelling at me because I don’t know how to do my homework. He pretty much blamed me, which just totally ticked me off. So like within twenty minutes left in the class my head hurt so much that I pretty much started crying.

Comet is still having a tuff time with her bulling problem so I have been trying to cheer her up. By telling her just to pretty much get over it and don’t let the person bother her. I have also told her that whatever the stupid bully been saying then they are pretty much saying it to themselves because they have NO right to be calling other people when they should just get a life and leave my friends alone. If they think it’s right to bully my friends then there so dead wrong. No matter if they say it to my friend well there saying it to me also. If they can’t handle the truth that they are just stupid little flying pigs that hold the blade at themselves then they should just back the hell off. I am not saying this just for my friend, but for everyone else in the world.

Song of the day:

The Springs Joy

Today went ok, it started out like crap and I felt really light headed. I am pretty much caught up in my classes. Which is hard when my teacher gives out packets every day that have like four pages on them. Stupid math/numbers always makes me mad. I shall destroy the evil math.

So lately when I am in the hallway I normally try keeping away from this guy that just totally hates my guts. I have been doing a pretty awesome job at that. Even though the guy is starting to spread bad word around about me and crap like that. It hasn’t really been bugging me since next year I won’t see his ugly face around me ever again. So that’s what I just keep telling myself every day. My friend Comet has been cheering me on and I will cheer on for her. If people try messing with me they also have to mess with her. Comet got my back and I got hers. She is an epic friend.

Allot had happen in the past few days, and I have been trying to keep on my toes about everything that has been happening. Winter is finally over and the spring air is filling in fast. Making my days brighter since I hate the cold winter air and that I prefer hot summer air. When the lakes are unfrozen and the sunsets shine the sky away making everything so wonderful. With the pain and suffering going away making my anger fly free with the birds. Can’t wait till summer fully hits and school is done for another year.

Mood: Happy, and ready to take on whatever pulls in.

A perfect Night

“In the darken sky everyone sees the bright stars that shine brightly in the forever night. Everyone in the world calls them rocks full of hot gas, but for me I call them hearts. They are warm because deep inside them are stories. Stories that make them burn brightly in the skies from above. Everyone has a star that last for a long time. They hold the persons heart deep within the rock. The star keeps the stories safe along with the human heart. If someone finally dies in world called earth. They are still truly alive with that star that they created when they were born in a new life. If you lost someone you loved and cared about all you have to do is stare in the night sky wile thinking about the ones you love, and how they still shine bright. No matter how far it feels like that separates them from you. You will always be together under the same sky as them. Having your hearts connect together each night that last forever in the eyes of one.”

Someone I have lost once told me this to keep my worries away. I will always remember that day when we were truly together. I hope these words can help some people also. When they feel lost inside just like I have for the longest time.

Mood: Trying to get back on my feet. So Pretty Good.

Thoughts and Wishes

Today I haven’t really been myself at all. No matter how much I tried not to think about one thing it always just ends up coming right back. Like I’m suppose to find out the missing puzzle pieces. As I try to think more into it. My head and heart just ends up hurting more than ever. The pain of this memory is the pain of my past. For many to wonder why it had to be the way of life for someone to just vanish, never wanting to be friends ever again. A forever sorrow that every word they spoke just made scars into the heart. The scars just deepen without them knowing only to the one person that holds onto the heart dear.

For me everyone is like the beast in Beauty and The Beast. Where everyone holds a rose to care for, and they have to keep the petals so they can find someone they dear most in the world before time runs out.  The rose I hold dear had turned to stone in my past, but all thanks to my friends today it shows some color to the world. I will never be the same happy girl when I was with my grandpa, but I will always be someone there to care for anybody who turns onto my path. I hope someday they will do the same for me.

 Even though my wishes never do come true, but for me to only just try to think one day it will. My one wish is for a life where there doesn’t have to be so much suffering. A place where I don’t have to dream or look inside my heart to breath in the world of happiness. The world with no drama, less fighting, and were people don’t have to think death is the chose to go. I want to see a place where the birds sing like on the summer’s sunset. The grass wet from the fresh rain that has just fallen.  Where people can look into the sky and find their own set of winds to swore through the skies from above. This all may sound pretty wacky, but it’s my dream wish. That nobody can make come true only in my heart this dream wish lies within.

Mood: I’m in an Ok mood, not so great, but not so bad either just in the middle.