Hey sorry that I haven’t been posting much. Even though it doesn’t really matter because nobody ever looks on here, but for the past week all I have been going through is so much pain. First of all I have been worried sick about three great friends Puppy, Mike, and Madara. Well no matter how much I tried can’t seem to get them outta of my mind, because I’m afraid to lose some of my friends the main people I normally talk to. Since me and Comet are just in World War 3 at the moment. At this point I don’t know if we will be friends again, but anywho lets get back on track.
Puppy is just breaking down, and I will always wish for the best for him even though I feel like one of the worst people alive. I feel like I have done something I shouldn’t, but no matter what he is always there for me so I will always try to help him out as much as I can.
Mike wants to end his life for good. He tried hanging himself just a few nights ago… and the image still haunts me. He has been my friend for about three years now and normally when he talks to me I can make him feel better, but I’m afraid because he hasn’t been on lately like he normally is. I guess because he is still trying to find his purpose in life and why he has to go through so much pain inside his heart. He lost his love and has just been down in the dump since.
Finally Madara, he is one of my friends that is quitting a game that we played together. And I think he is quitting it because of me. No matter how much I tried getting a hold of him. It just seems like he is just ignoring everything. I feel like no matter I do I just end up losing the best friends that I ever had…
Lastly, my life has been put down so much that all the pain I am use to just doesn’t feel like I even care. About how I end just as long as the ones around me are ok. Like everyone says “Everyone in the world has a time for their life and when it’s time they will fully leave this world and move on.” And just how much I don’t even have much time to live, and be happy. Like if I take much more pain, and people think that I am just someone that can just be broken over a million times well their wrong. I can’t take much more pain from stupid people in my life.
Mood= Sad, Lost and Worried.
