I guess for the longest time I have felt nothing but pain. For some reasom whenever I try to help or say anything people tend to not even care. My words or say means nothing in this world, or ever will be. So lost in pain. So I shall stay in forever shadows I guess. The very shadows that keep me stedy and alive. Even though I only have one friend with me now, but it seems like my heart can't stand it. The shadow that started taking over my hearts world just want's me to shut down on everyone. When I know I don't want to. I always wanted something better, but I guess that nothing does really matter. Everytime I try to have a wonderful life random stuff pops up like over size flame flowers blocking my path.
Like for instance, at work I deal with fucked up people who think just because they have a job means that they know everything. Even though I had worked there longer I am a higher rank then them. They just think they can walk all over me like a feild of wild flowers. Well people that I work with need to wake up and smell the damn roses because I am not going to listen to their fucked up minds. Also I am fine with jokes and stuff, but if they think they can do it every min of my time they are wrong wronger then the devil it self. Look I can deal with crap, but I am not no super hero where I can deal with it for my life. I don't want to deal with winning people that hate other people they work with or that their in pain and crap. I only let one person slide and thats the one person who understands me, but other then that friend people need to go away and leave my life alone. I am no longer in use to fuck around with and be a lame ass target for people to shoot off their drama off on me. I am no longer their stupid toy.
Lastly I fully lost Comet as a friend. Havent talked to her in days/weeks. I guess I just text one person now that isn't just family. Haha I guess I am a lame person after all, a girl who can't keep friend's go figure. Life just hasn't been my best, but that doesnt mean I will quit fighting.
"The devil shall never win over my soul until the last battle of the wars has fully fallen to the knees of ones who stand strong with wings that no longer fly for the ones that no longer fight. Each last feather of that wing will glow with a story that will shine for a forever day's where no man ever dares to walk the land in the forever darken shadows."
