Thoughts and Wishes

Today I haven’t really been myself at all. No matter how much I tried not to think about one thing it always just ends up coming right back. Like I’m suppose to find out the missing puzzle pieces. As I try to think more into it. My head and heart just ends up hurting more than ever. The pain of this memory is the pain of my past. For many to wonder why it had to be the way of life for someone to just vanish, never wanting to be friends ever again. A forever sorrow that every word they spoke just made scars into the heart. The scars just deepen without them knowing only to the one person that holds onto the heart dear.

For me everyone is like the beast in Beauty and The Beast. Where everyone holds a rose to care for, and they have to keep the petals so they can find someone they dear most in the world before time runs out.  The rose I hold dear had turned to stone in my past, but all thanks to my friends today it shows some color to the world. I will never be the same happy girl when I was with my grandpa, but I will always be someone there to care for anybody who turns onto my path. I hope someday they will do the same for me.

 Even though my wishes never do come true, but for me to only just try to think one day it will. My one wish is for a life where there doesn’t have to be so much suffering. A place where I don’t have to dream or look inside my heart to breath in the world of happiness. The world with no drama, less fighting, and were people don’t have to think death is the chose to go. I want to see a place where the birds sing like on the summer’s sunset. The grass wet from the fresh rain that has just fallen.  Where people can look into the sky and find their own set of winds to swore through the skies from above. This all may sound pretty wacky, but it’s my dream wish. That nobody can make come true only in my heart this dream wish lies within.

Mood: I’m in an Ok mood, not so great, but not so bad either just in the middle.